Wow!!!! Almost a year since my last post. Lots has changed. If you are reading this as only my close friends could, then you know the changes.
So, lets start with a quote from a not so well known author:

Life can lead you down many paths, some with twists and turns. Others are straight, but narrow. It's not the path you take that makes any difference in the outcome. It's who you take with you down that path.
That took me way too long to finally figure that out. I kept following my heart and ended up going nowhere. Once I realized that my heart was controlled by automaticity, I understood why I kept falling for the wrong guy. It was automatic!
You have to choose by knowing what you need. Your heart will always follow.
Once I saw a bird fly into a glass door and drop dead. I immediately thought...how freaking stupid! It wasnt until later that I understood that he just kept going because he couldn't see the danger ahead. It seemed like a clear choice, but infact was a solid window that he could see out of, but never get through. Such is life going down any path with the wrong person.