There is a difference between a lie and omission of the truth. I didnt used to think so...but there is. I guess if I were on the other end of the omission I would still believe the same. Im not obviously...so here I am.

I keep thinking that some day, my life will steer onto a track that was meant for me. Im not sure what I was waiting for. Maybe...this is what my life was meant for. ...one heartbreak after another. I joke that maybe turning lesbo would change karma, but I know that would never work for me.

Im more inclined to run than to stay. Thats a recent issue that I havent encountered since High school. I was always good at it until about 11 years ago. Now... well...I guess the safest coping skills are the tried and true.

It should say something about me that I am still friends with ALL of my ex-whatevers. I used to think that it meant that I was a really good person....now I believe more and more its because I never can let go of the past.