Trust is something that has to be earned. It is not a God given right to anyone...no matter how much you love them. When opportunities present themselves, it's for a reason. Things in life don't just happen...I believe in fate. I believe that situations occur in our lives to open our eyes. .....abiertos mis ojos. When fate keeps tossing you doubt...it's for a reason. I keep trying to ignore my gut instinct... That painful voice that tells you when you know something is wrong. The open window...I kept seeing it over and over. I never could figure out what it meant. Apparently I'm still not getting it. I saw it again tonight. The more I try to figure it out...the more distant it seems. I feel like it is something that I already know and just not admitting to myself. I have this weird feeling like I'm suppressing some knowledge that I don't want to come to terms with. Either way...time to get in the bubble bath with a few drinks.